Wednesday: Today=OK, but Tomorrow=SCARY!

Mostly good news for today, but tomorrow...is, to ME, and I'm not the calmest person you'll ever hear from...really scary.

But starting with today: Bill is still coughing a lot, and last night his fever started going up again, but he felt okay, and he is still asleep. He is definitely going to try teaching today, even though there is a norovirus-type epidemic on his campus. (If he got it, would he know the difference? He's forever putting his hand over his mouth and putting one finger of the other hand up in the air to tell me, hold on, don't talk, I'm trying not to...Bin Laden) (If you saw yesterday's post, you'll know why I said Bin Laden right there.)

So I'll let you know if that changes, or if he's worse this morning.

But tomorrow. That's when he gets the dye-contrast CT scan. He has to fast overnight and drink a bunch of radioactive milkshakes. Then they take pictures of his abdomen. I think we'll get results on Friday.

The results will tell us more about the two lesions they found on his liver in January-whether those were cysts or something more troubling. The results will also tell us if the chemo has been working on Bill's type of cancer.

As they say in my 12-step Parents-Who-Screwed-Up-And-Wanna-Know-Why Anonymous program, if you're gonna do "what ifs" do them for the chance of WONDERFUL things happening, instead of scary things! Like WHAT IF I win the lottery tomorrow?

So WHAT IF the CT results come back that Bill's insides are as clean as a whistle in a car wash?

Well then, he will either get two more rounds of chemo OR they will let him off early for good behavior and he will have THREE WHOLE MONTHS without any medical events. Just a nice summer!

Let's end on THAT what-if, even though my little brain is sneaking around behind my back thinking of other scenarios. Bad brain! To a 12-step meeting with thee!