The ridiculously self-centered, self-indulgent, self-pitying blog post that I never should have posted

QUESTION 1: Have you ever been the only one in charge of running a three-week-long vacation in your home for between two and seven people, depending on the day? You know, cooking complex dinners every night, coffee and stuff every morning, shopping, vacuuming, getting rooms and beds ready, towels laundered, bathrooms kept clean, planning the entertainment, all while being careful to make it look easy by sitting down and "cheerfully" participating in the multiple conversations going on all day, all over your house, from about 8 am till about 9 pm when you just fall in bed? Only if you've done this do you REALLY have the complete idea of what this is like.

QUESTION 2: Have you ever taken care of a spouse with stage 4 bladder cancer, and all the passing sicknesses that come with that, and the sad and painful conversations, and the inexperience of dealing with such feelings and grief, all while trying to handle the anguish in the days leading up to the second opinion?

QUESTION 3: Have BOTH of the above scenarios ever befallen you at the EXACT SAME TIME?

QUESTION 4: Have you ever looked up at the sky, while watering your bedraggled and neglected garden at 8:30 pm because THAT'S when you could finally get to it, and have you said to the sky, "You're going to explain this all one day, right?"

QUESTION 5: Is this particular blog post right here the most self-centered, self-pitying, ridiculously inappropriate blog entry you have ever had to read on any blog anywhere? And am I going to get nailed if any of my house guests ever see this one (but, in defense of my house guests, they all did say they came here to "help us out" and to "give us a break").

I will answer question 5: Yes, and yes. And I'm ashamed of myself for posting this. But here I go, pushing the button to publish the darned thing.

Oh well. So shoot me. (REALLY. SOMEONE PLEEEEEZE SHOOT ME!)