Inside our house...

This is a picture I drew of the inside of my kitchen.

But I digress.

Today, Bill and I are both full of apologies to you. We are apologizing because we now have to pull back quite a bit on our communication with everyone, starting today.

I will continue to post progress, probably daily, on this blog, but we both have to bid a love-full but necessary adieu to everyone--just for now...

Bill and I are both having a very difficult time, physically and emotionally, right now, and we both need to rest. Just like the saying that one can't be too rich or too thin, there should be a saying that you can't have too much love in your life.

I don't agree with the "too rich or too thin" part, but it simply IS true that you can't have too much love in your life!

And because of you, we have SO much love in our lives right now, when it means the MOST.

The only trouble we're having is that we have found that we are not keeping up with all the communications we are receiving, and we feel like we are letting you down.

In other words, on one hand, we are thrilled out of our minds that so many people care so much about Mister Billy!

But we are FALLING DOWN ON THE JOB at doing our part to respond to your beautifulness!

We are failing to return the phone calls we wish we could return, and failing to write back to emails or to respond to cards--we're not even keeping up with replying to offers of food and kindnesses like that! You see? We are being TERRIBLE!

So this morning, we decided to just let everyone know that we are taking a break from communicating--and simultaneously, we are apologizing like crazy...

We both KNOW that you will completely understand, but still, we hope that this doesn't offend anyone even in the tiniest way.

Meanwhile.......

In today's health news, Bill isn't having such a great day. Duke never did call us back. And Bill still has tachycardia, is losing weight, is pale as the North Pole, and had quite high blood pressure today. He feels a tiny bit stronger, he thinks, but still has to take medicine to keep from throwing up after he eats, and he almost faints when he walks, and--you know--it's getting so old.

But we do understand that healing from surgery takes a LONG time--and all his problems could be related just to anemia which could be resulting from his kidneys not being at their peak, due to the lingering effects of chemo and of surgery and complications and such.

So we aren't feeling doomed.

Just a little bit adrift, medically, and mind-warped that Duke never called back about the follow-up appointment which was due this past week at the latest. Please think TWICE before encouraging anyone you know to EVER go to Duke for hospitalization of any kind.

So forgive us--and we know you already do--but we can't come out and play right now.

I pray to heaven that you haven't felt ignored by us--that would be tragic, because you have been angelic--and we need your love and your prayers, but we can't (hey, let's really mix up the metaphors) return the tennis ball right now.

More tomorrow, here on the blog.

We love you. That's the thing. We love you so much.